Hi. I'm a stay-at-home mom—when I'm not working. I work 'gigs' as an on-site kids sports photographer, so definitely not a 9-to-5. I've gotta say, being a full-time parent is by far the most challenging and most fulfilling job I have ever had.
Mae's daddy was laid off a couple months ago. It is so nice to have him back home from those business trips, but in the meantime... eek!
My super-awesome kid, Mae Beatrix, was born on January 19, 2010. If you have any questions, feel free to ask!
First I thought it was a cold, then sinus infection, now it’s feeling like the flu. Oh, and of course Mae is sick, that’s how I got sick. That’s even worse. Kids don’t know how to handle being sick so they just go crazy. Poor baby.
Oh, and Husband got me a Bamboo for Valentine’s Day! I can’t wait to have a little time to myself—when I’m not exhausted & sick—to use it. I’m waiting til tomorrow to open the other thing he sent me.
He sent Mae a Yo Gabba Gabba bath set. I made a little Valentine’s bucket for her with a coloring book, a teddy, and a marshmallow pop thingie.
Sad to be without my man on Valentine’s, but glad that I have someone who loves me and who was thoughtful enough to still do something for me from 1,380 miles away.
Try being a single mom, even just 3 weeks out of every month. You’ll soon learn how weak you are, how hard it is, and how tough you’ll have to be in order to pull it off.
I feel so pathetic, so defeated, holding back tears at the end of each day—even the good days are so hard all alone.
But there is no losing allowed in this game, no option to quit. You keep your head down and smile through gritted teeth, because you have no other choice but to succeed, no other option but kicking ass.
To all the real single moms out there, I salute you. It’s the one of the hardest roads to walk.
Yesterday I interviewed for my former Shipping Specialist position at my old FedEx store. I got to see a couple of my former coworkers and catch up with my old manager. I had the job.
All day, from the moment I got home from the interview to the moment my husband came home from work, I had a lump in the back of my throat and a million conflicting thoughts going through my head.
I can’t go back to work full-time! I will only see Mae for a few hours a day, and her daddy will be out of town for weeks at a time. Who is going to take care of the household? Will the cost of daycare even make my extra paycheck worth it? Will the worries of daycare make it worth it? She is only 18 months old, after all.
On the other hand, shouldn’t I overcome my worries and fears and go for it? I did miss this job, and I’ve missed working, and we do get a little stir-crazy, me & Mae, at home together all day…
But would I be happy? Would Mae be happy? Is this really the best decision for everyone?
Then again, I already told my old manager that I want the job… if I change my mind it will make me look irresponsible, and it would be inconvenient to her, and now she will have to find someone else for the job opening…
Then my husband came home, and we talked, and I got all of this crazy out of my head. And I decided to call my old manager today to tell her that, although I did want this job, the timing just isn’t right for our needs right now. I could tell she was disappointed. But in the end, she will find someone else, and I will be here, with Mae, where I belong.